Chamber CD - Day 9

Tuesday, November 14, 2006
9:54:30 AM

The mailman finally delivered the complete collection of Schumann’s piano works on Friday. I can’t wait to take a good look at all this great music!

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I am finally getting well organized and getting a good sense of direction for this music. I have taken a hint from writing film music and have started an Excel workbook to keep track of my ideas and development. Using a computer is much neater than paper, and more environmentally friendly!

I have made a page for the general concept of the CD, one for a listing of the pieces I want to write, another for the instruments I wish to use, one for titles I might use and I will probably have one worksheet for each piece.

Now this all sounds good, but I need to get my ass writing. I am feeling very stressed out and more than a bit depressive today. I feel scattered, overloaded.

It is taking too long for me to get going. I am experimenting with a higher degree of preparation and organizing than I have ever used before, and the length that it takes for this alone would be enough to drive me crazy.

However, I think the cause for my woes lies elsewhere. This is an important project for me, a turning point, or should I say, an arrival point. With this project I will find out if I am as a good as I think I can be.

10:20: PM

I had a breakdown tonight. The stress got to me. Too much is going on, too much to do: the book, the writing, the kids, the house – and everything seems to be progressing at a snail’s pace, not getting resolved. That’ all I will say about that.

My wife is a great support.

I must relax. Stay sane.